What It Is Like To Be Fenrir’s Mate

Me: *Reading about Fenrir and Ragnarok*

Fenrir: *Holding me from behind with human arms*
“Ragnarok…doesn’t scare you?”
Me: “no”
Fenrir: *nuzzles into my neck* (He does that…a lot)
“Why?”
Me: “It is needed”
Fenrir: (I can feel his smile against my flesh)
“Yes, are you afraid?”
Me: “No”
Fenrir: “I will devour you as well”
Me: “I know” * I reach up to run my fingers through his unruly head jet black hair. A little bit of blood appears on my hand. There is always blood. No matter his form.*
 
To be a mate to Fenrir is to feel bound. Bound by rules, regulations, even my own body. There is a finite feeling deep down. But it is not sadness. It is a waiting, an anticipation neither good nor bad. It just “IS”. Godspousing to Fenrir is not something terrible. It is a feeling of chaotic freedom and primal truth. My Love is playful, loving, temperamental. Always the Alpha. Years ago about 10. I met Tyr. I never worshipped him but I did honor his honesty. I never understood why. Until I read of Fenrir. Then it would be so many more years later before Fenrir claimed me. No fancy wedding. No pomp and circumstance. Just a simple “Your MINE” in a dream. His love is so very vast. Almost scary. Recently I was introduced to Hati and Skoll. I was told to act as step-mother since I cannot have my own children. Now they join me. They are very curious, always nosing into my business. I smile.   
 
Ragnarok will come. Until then I will play and hunt with my family. I will tell Father Loki dirty jokes, I will dance with Mother Angrboda around the firelight, I will help Sister Hela ferry the dead to Niflheim, I will hold the bowl for Sigyn, I will weep for Narvi and Vali, I will seek out Jormandgund,  I will honor the fires that is Glut and her two daughters. Upon the end of my days I will stand as He is unbound, unfettered facing Him and be devoured to be reborn. 
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12 thoughts on “What It Is Like To Be Fenrir’s Mate

  1. Reblogged this on requiemsandmadrigals and commented:
    This sounds wonderful

    However I am getting a bit worried Jormungand may be destined for permanent bachelorhood

    I hope he finds some one he likes enough, trying to explain to him the advantages of having a mate never gets an enthusiastic response

    • I do see your point Modifiedlizard. Part of the issue is that He? She?(Jormangund) seems to hold such an alienistic (is that a word?) quality. When I personally meditated upon The World-Serpent I got the word “Protection” and that was all. I will state as my opinion only. Jormangund may not “need” any”one” when Itself has all of us encircled in It’s mighty girth.

  2. Reblogged this on Loki's Bruid and commented:
    This is a beautiful entry on Fenrir and His love. I don’t talk a lot about Ragnarok, but my gnosis of Loki’s role in it is that it is a solemn, sacred duty that must be performed to maintain the order and balance of the cosmos. It is not mustache-twirling evil for its own sake. The knowledge that Loki must do this task drives Him mad with grief, and yet it must be done out of love.

    For that, I can do nothing but love Him more.

  3. Alexis Solvey Viorsdottir says:

    Hat dies auf Geschichten einer urbanen Priesterin rebloggt und kommentierte:
    At the moment I am standing very close to Fenrir for a couple of reasons. So I’m reblogging this. Hope you don’t mind.

  4. Reblog away Alexis :). People or at least those who would love Him are possibly frustrated that there wasn’t enough about Fenrir other than the lore and a few smatterings of ritual. I know I was frustrated. So He told me to do something about it.

  5. Your post broke my heart. It radiates with Truth. Funny timing too, because I made a very disturbing dream about Ragnarok a week ago.

  6. Valiel, my phone is giving me issues regarding your link 😦

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